The Light Shines at the End of the Narrow Path

It seems like it would be easier to live for the world... And maybe it would be a lot easier to walk a much broader Path, with more options. And maybe that path would lead to more side roads that are also wide and easy to travel, But its the Narrow Road I have chosen to take. This narrow road seems rough, it takes effort to travel. Sometimes this path seems to wear me down.

God showed me two roads. One is narrow, rocky and points kind of uphill.
Its a road that looks to be a little difficult to travel along.
Then he showed me a road that seems prettier, Wider, and it looked a lot easier to walk. Then beyond the horizon I could see that It had darkness and destruction heading its way.
This path I have taken.. God shows me that it opens up to Light, I can see Gods Hand.
God showed me that even though I fall down on this path, He still loves me, and in fact he is the very one who picks me back up and urges me to keep going. because soon I will see his face.
The ones who walk the wider roads may seem to fall less because they don't have any place to fall from, They already found comfort in the low places of the world.

Giving up seems so much easier and sometimes I wish I could, but I know within My Knower that I can't..

Butterflies

Sometimes I feel like I am the only person in the world to feel such loneliness, And it doesn't even matter to me that I am wrong on that thought... Because the only thing that matters is the sadness I feel... the heartbreak that seems to be with me more often than not. I cry and pray to God so much and I ask him to bring someone into my life, and the more time I spend focused on my " wants" is less time spent being thankful for the beautiful people God has allows me to know...So how do I gain a new perspective? How do I let it become less about me and more about how my plan can line up with Gods plan? The truth is right in front of my face and its a truth that is so apparent.. So clear to me.. The problem with myself is that I am always looking too hard, and so I cant see.. Maybe if I let myself just be still.. because If I truly do believe and trust in God then I wouldn't be so bothered..

Believing isn't only knowing that God can, Its knowing that God will.


I am reminded by a butterfly..
As I was teaching a young group of kids.. we were outside for playtime. They were amazed by this one butterfly as it floated through the air, and as it passed on by they looked at me asking " where did it go?" and telling me that they want to see it again. So we went on a butterfly hunt.. looking under toys and playground equipment.. each time hearing their tiny little voices say " no, its not there" So I gathered them together and we prayed "

Dear , Jesus, Thank you for bringing us another butterfly , Amen"

.. I asked Lauren a little girl of the age of 3 years old " Will Jesus bring another butterfly?" her short and very positive answer was simply " yep" as she went on to play something else.as we started to head back into the class three butterflies came floating by.. and they seemed to stop long enough to give the kids a good look or to say " here we are"But not only did God provide he also added and multiplied ...

because of that child like faith that I am so often lacking...

Trying to remember that Gods promises are Yes and AmenAnd trying to remember that not only will God give me what I desire, but if I just push through and know that he WILL give..he will give it better and bigger... No matter what package it seems to arrive in.. I pray that God will allow me to see and to be thankful for whatever Gifts he does send my way... instead of looking over it, or around it.. waiting for something else. So today I am simply in awe of My Father God who delights in my happiness in him.

Trying to not let go

Life for me sometimes seem to be more struggle than happiness.
I have found myself lately trying to pull myself out of a depression,
Sometimes I feel like I have fallen over the edge , and I am barely hanging on, and I want to let go of what little bit of faith I am holding on to. Because maybe at the bottom of this mountain, down in the valleys it will be easier. I feel like I am in the middle of the ocean all alone. I try so hard to keep my head above the water. I don't know how much water I can tread, I am worn and almost numb from it all. It seems like it would be so much easier to just give in, close my eyes and let the sea suck me in.So I pray.. Jesus, If I let go... please don't let go.
Jesus, Please don't let go.
I know that past it all there is so much greatness. I know that in the middle of it all is a God standing against the worst of it.
So Jesus, please don't let me let go.
I tell myself that the mass amount of power that's in all of the good of what is on top of this mountain is more than I can handle without the hardship of getting there. I can't see what God has for me. I can't see past this mess that I am in. I can't see past my broken heart, the pain I am in, all of the worry that clouds my mind.
But I know that when I get on my knees to praise my God, I can close my eyes and see that right around that dark bubble that arrives as my eyes shut completely is a throne of a king of who I bow down to, seated just before me. If I could just get around that black spot I could see his face. I would see a face with concern because he cares, I hear a whisper of words.. Don't let go, I will see you through this. Please trust in me.
I am focused on the scripture " ALL things work together for the good for those who love the Lord" Romans 8:28 And I am speaking this into situation in my life because Thank you God for including " ALL" things.. which means God is saying to me... It doesn't matter what it is, it doesn't matter how great or small " ALL" things will work for the God.. This is word I hold onto today, a living word that's very much alive and powerful. I believe in the power of Gods word and his promises. So I pray God don't let me let go of this, Don't let go Jesus