To My Daughters

Like liquid filled to the rim, splashing out and toppling over the edge
My heart of which contains the love for the two most wonderful things that God has ever blessed me with. Nicole and Amber
My heart was yours before I could even hold you in my arms and see your beautiful face.
My heart over flows from the love that I feel,
I have to give true thanks to God and his amazing grace,
Counting fingers and toes, are days long behind us as we travel the road ahead.
May God take your hand and lead you along the right paths.
Just know that mommy is only one step behind you looking on
and wishing you the best.. Be true to who you are and never settle for less
Remember My love for you will never fade and will always be true.
It is for the smile that I have each day and the joy in my heart that I OWE to you.

Love from mom

Just Me

My life changes today from this moment on
My Children will see me be the very best and living to my full potential
So in turn they will be the best at who they are,

I will love with everything in me,
care for the world , because its my right
stand up for the person next to me
and ignore the one turning his nose up at me because I do

I will forget all the negative my family has taught me
embrace all the positive my children will learn from me

I will cry when I am sad , and also when I am happy
I will touch lives , and see smiles
I will leave my mark on those who cross my path
even if they don't know why,

I'll be the shoulder to lean on,
the listening ear to speak to

I will be loved and broken hearted
But I will move on,

I am random, silly and a little crazy too
But no one can change who I am
For now on,
I can only be me
simply who I was born to be

Just me...

Self Worth

it is what you don't say, but already know that hurts me most

the unspoken words, leaving empty spaces filled with lies

Fake smiles, laughter to hide the void

momentary pleasures don't last long enough

empty touches that fade with the night,

lowering ones self value and placing another on a pedestal

a sad and unrealized mistake on both acts

She's more than this, better

Beautiful, angelic

No one ever sees , she wants to believe

trying to recognize her own self worth

Monarch

Okay , I met this guy who invited me to a secret society party in Panama city Fl.
I was kinda excited about it at first until I learned a little about their little " secrets society"
its kind of like a masked ball.. Can you say " Eyes Wide Shut" this is exactly what these parties are based on, Ever hear of the "Monarch Slavery"??? well, apparently Monarch is a form of brain wash, its usually starts when the girl is still very young .. at toddler age

ACCORDING to these people, there is one word that is programmed into these women's mind, and when spoken, they are at the mercy of their master, used for their own sexual games, passed around to be used, after the sex games are over the women don't know what has happen to them, they suffer from black outs/ time loss

um can you say " Hell NO "
this girl will not be going to anything like that
I am def going to study more about the Monarch and keep you posted

Not just a Smile

Sometimes we will cross paths with someone who will make a difference in our life,even if its just making us smile,To the people on the outside looking in it might not seem like such a big deal,but to me it means the world, so if I only get to have your friendship for just a moment I'll still feel lucky to have had you for only a moment,and if our friendship grows into something more then I will be excited to see where this road takes us, If we are meant to be for a life time, Then this smile will last forever. Its not just a smile its a feeling of happiness.Who knows how far it can go, we don't know,I guess that is why we take chances in life.. All I know is right now I have a smile.
Jenaoneil